A Bittersweet Release Day…Of Sorts

While May 1st is not the official UK release date for When One Night Isn’t Enough, it’s the date my debut 2in1 goes up for sale on the Harlequin Mills and Boon website. So it’s a release day of sorts. I should be thrilled. And I am.

But May 1st has long been a sad day for me because on that day, twenty-three years ago, my mother lost her long, courageously fought battle with cancer. Were she here today there is no doubt in my mind she would love my book, regardless of subject matter or content, simply because I wrote it. (That’s the kind of mom she was.)  I anticipate, given the opportunity, she would have purchased a minimum of one thousand copies. And, after distributing them to every person she knew, she would have passed them out to strangers on the street.

But she’s not here to read my book or sing my praises or be proud of what I’ve accomplished. And that makes me sadder still.

What a downer! Not my usual style. Sorry about that.

I’ll be up to celebrating next week, which is probably okay since everyone in the UK is likely partied out following the royal wedding.

On Thursday, May 5th I’ll be blogging at the Medical Authors Group Blog. If you have some time, please stop by for a visit. (I promise to be more upbeat!)

On Monday, May 9th I’ll be kicking off my 25 stop blog tour! (Dates and links are on my News page.) In conjunction with my blog tour I’m running my first contests! For a sneak peek, my loyal blog followers, check out my Home page to see how you can enter and what you can win.

While times like this remind me how very much I still miss my mom, I’m lucky to be blessed with wonderfully supportive family and friends.

And I am thankful for each and every one of you!

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  • Posted April 30, 2011 at 7:25 PM | Permalink

    It’s been a long time since I lost my mother, but it is a loss that stays with you forever. At odd moments it will crop up and surprise me. I expected to miss her at my wedding and when my girls were born. But there have been little moments – when my Patience wrote her first poem, when Prudence shows off her wacky sense of humor – that I wish she was here to share the moment with me.

    I’m so glad you are surrounded by friends and family to celebrate with you.

  • Wendy S. Marcus
    Posted April 30, 2011 at 7:37 PM | Permalink

    And to make me smile on Twitter! Thank you for that, Julia!

  • Nas
    Posted April 30, 2011 at 8:18 PM | Permalink

    I also lost my mum twenty seven years this September and I miss her every day. If my daughter says something, it brings in the memory. Anything can trigger it off.

    I’m so with you, and I totally understand how she would have ordered your books and distributed it all over. Mums are like that.

  • Dale
    Posted April 30, 2011 at 8:40 PM | Permalink

    Wendy, I understand how May 1st is a bittersweet day for you.

    You are right, Mom would have been bursting with pride about the publication of your first book and shouting it from the rooftops!!

    Know that I’m so proud of your accomplishments and am happy for the growth and self satisfaction you’ve achieved.


  • Posted April 30, 2011 at 11:42 PM | Permalink

    Thanks, Nas. You’re so right about missing a mom every single day. It never goes away.

  • Posted April 30, 2011 at 11:44 PM | Permalink

    Thanks, Dale. I know it will be a difficult day for you, too. You are a wonderful support to me, even when I’m a constant pain in the butt! I love you! XOXOXOXOXOX – Right back atcha!

  • Posted May 1, 2011 at 12:22 AM | Permalink

    (((HUGS))) Wendy. A bittersweet day. I tend to believe that loved ones come back, that they watch over us and love us. So I think she’s standing right beside you, very proud and cheering you on. Even if you can’t see her anymore. Not that that takes away from missing her. I still have my mom, but I lost my dad about 11 years ago and it just never gets easier. <3

  • Louise Groarke
    Posted May 1, 2011 at 12:25 AM | Permalink

    Wendy, what an emotional day for you! My heartfelt thoughts are with you for the loss of your mom who sounds like an adorable lady, you must miss her. I’m sure she’d be so proud of your release day today! So celebrate and remember the wonderful times you shared. As for me, well my mom is still here, but 12,000 miles away and I miss her every day. Moms – eh? The most precious gift. Hugs to you, Louise

  • Posted May 1, 2011 at 12:27 AM | Permalink

    ((Hugs)) Wendy. It must be very bittersweet for you.

    Thinking of you!!!

  • Tara Stearns
    Posted May 1, 2011 at 8:01 AM | Permalink

    Hi Wendy – I know it is bittersweet, but I would like to say Congrats anyway. It is a big accomplishment and as you said your mom would be proud of that (and probably not want anyone to forget it).


  • Posted May 1, 2011 at 8:26 AM | Permalink

    Perhaps it is no coincidence that May 1 turned out to be the release date of your very first book – perhaps Mom worked it out with the angels to let you know she is sharing this day with you

  • Posted May 1, 2011 at 4:35 PM | Permalink

    Thanks Joanne, Louise, Aimee, Tara and Liz! Your kind words mean so much!

  • Posted May 1, 2011 at 4:49 PM | Permalink

    I am thinking about you today and know how hard it is thinking about your mom and missing her. She is def celebrating with you – I bet you will feel her presence strongly today on the launch of your new book. Congratulations! We love you and celebrate with you.

  • Posted May 1, 2011 at 6:34 PM | Permalink

    Thinking about you today and know the feeling. Some days are engraved in out memories. I liked the bit about your mother buying so many copies and passing them about. My dad did something sort of like that. He gave the nurses at the hospital when he was in for his final surgery. Copies of the first three chapters. If they wanted to know the end they had to buy the book. Wishing you comfort for your tears.

  • Posted May 1, 2011 at 7:00 PM | Permalink

    Thanks Jen and Janet!

  • Posted May 2, 2011 at 12:46 AM | Permalink

    Congrats on your first of many release days, Wendy! Your mum sounds like she was a wonderful and brave person and it’s lovely that you’re able to share this day with her memory.

  • Wendy S. Marcus
    Posted May 2, 2011 at 7:43 AM | Permalink

    Thanks Lacey! I’m feeling better today!

  • Jen FitzGerald
    Posted May 2, 2011 at 9:07 AM | Permalink

    *hugs* on losing your mom, even after so many years. 🙁

  • Posted May 2, 2011 at 9:25 AM | Permalink

    Huge Hugs to you Wendy. I’m just back from my local retreat and this post made my cry. I’m sure your mom is very proud of you. I believe our loved ones are always watching us, so I’m sure she was with you as you worked on the book. And I’m sure she’s very proud of you. (Hope that’s not too freaky for you.)

    I’m very excited for you and wish you a very happy and long writing career.

    Abbi 🙂

  • Wendy S. Marcus
    Posted May 2, 2011 at 9:51 AM | Permalink

    Thanks Jen and Abbi! I do believe my mom is watching and right about now she’s yelling at me to get back to work….which I’m going to do today.

    And as Liz pointed out…Maybe there’s a reason my 2in1 came out on Mills and Boon on May 1st.

  • Posted May 4, 2011 at 8:15 AM | Permalink

    Hugs, Wendy. Thinking of you.


  • Wendy S. Marcus
    Posted May 6, 2011 at 10:13 AM | Permalink

    Thanks so much, Suzanne! I’m feeling much better now and am back to work! Loved your blog post with the Smarties!

  • Joanne Coles
    Posted May 6, 2011 at 7:37 PM | Permalink

    Hugs on your sad anniversary. Your mom will definitely be there cheering you on, you just can’t see her.

    Lots of hugs (sorry they are so late!).

  • Wendy S. Marcus
    Posted May 6, 2011 at 7:44 PM | Permalink

    Thanks Joanne! And it’s never to late to send hugs!

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